variousmilks

grey/gris

2010-06-16T02:39:00.001-04:00

feel like i am growing out of you

spin the bottle

2010-06-13T19:49:00.001-04:00

#summer #summer #summer

blackpyramid

2010-06-03T13:12:00.001-04:00

CAMPUS FRANCE YOU ARE UNBELIEVABLY UNWIELDY AND ARE GIVING ME A HEART ATTACK

like real food, but is toy

2010-05-27T21:03:00.001-04:00

listening a lot

HAGS

2010-05-20T22:54:00.000-04:00

c u in paris <3

skate kush

2010-05-19T11:03:00.000-04:00

approachings

2010-05-18T11:24:00.002-04:00

feel weird about leaving so early this time

i miss the sun

2010-05-15T01:58:00.000-04:00

especially at night

feeling normal again!

2010-05-11T00:24:00.000-04:00

that is, distant and logical.

owww

2010-05-08T11:14:00.001-04:00

coconut waters pls

missing zywiec

2010-05-05T10:16:00.002-04:00

hummus has always struck me as more of an experiment in texture than an actual food.

japanese robot-people please go away

2010-05-04T16:57:00.001-04:00

manta

2010-04-28T21:58:00.000-04:00

edits

2010-04-28T01:49:00.000-04:00

tuesday nights with dino and frankie

science

2010-04-26T17:41:00.003-04:00

everything is always better after april 20, always.

sports

2010-04-24T11:51:00.001-04:00

spring

gauche

2010-04-21T12:24:00.001-04:00

wild aristocratic abandon

un dimanche typique à mudd

2010-04-18T19:05:00.002-04:00

six cups of coffee, three bathroom trips, one hundred pages of radical lesbianism, diminished eyesight, cramping, more coffee, potential vomiting, failing to retain information from prior reading, fetal position, shivering in a pool of cold sweat on third floor, turning to the internet for solace.

late august in paris

2010-04-13T12:48:00.002-04:00

kabukimono

soft geometry

2010-04-09T10:37:00.001-04:00

meet me in the garden

success!!!!

2010-03-21T21:08:00.001-04:00

have not gone on neopets in four days!!!!

pizza friends

2010-03-15T17:32:00.001-04:00

having some digestive issues; are banana chips the cause or the solution?

cosmic shifting

2010-03-13T11:48:00.002-05:00

birds please

2010-03-07T12:31:00.000-05:00

wake me up, i need

cannot fathom

2010-03-04T17:51:00.002-05:00

did you know some people really just aren't into the new hot chip album? i mean, seriously, like, what gives?

parthenon, ferns, sleepy fox: the art library & me

2010-02-28T13:37:00.001-05:00

i'm dragging a dead deer up a hill,

2010-02-27T10:41:00.000-05:00

weird = machines

2010-02-22T01:42:00.003-05:00

churn

2010-02-18T08:52:00.000-05:00

working on my internet representation of myself

fang island

2010-02-14T18:11:00.001-05:00

photoshop has changed my life

unsettling

2010-02-11T00:33:00.001-05:00

i find it mildly terrifying

settling

2010-02-09T16:41:00.000-05:00

new job jam @ the art library

this makes me feel "infinitely real"

2010-02-08T18:45:00.002-05:00

http://twt.fm/373073

nite jewels

2010-02-06T01:47:00.000-05:00

second semester

vhs

2010-02-04T00:46:00.001-05:00

luke perry, meet princess peach-pit

my last day in brooklyn

2010-02-02T13:10:00.000-05:00

sort of like a dream, air

vague

2010-01-26T16:43:00.000-05:00

always monday

2010-01-25T16:39:00.002-05:00

three weeks in manila on the family estate / one is silver and the other is 18 karat gold-leaf that kind of melts into your skin when you touch it and underneath it's a polish beer-can / you have to choose!!

feast or famine

2010-01-24T13:08:00.002-05:00

come over, sing along to the return of jafar.

zywiec

2010-01-16T14:21:00.001-05:00

we are out of milk

split pea scarf, or,

2010-01-14T00:50:00.001-05:00

a liter of coconut water a day

ny re-solutions

2010-01-12T22:40:00.001-05:00

we have to remember to

2010-01-10T00:20:00.000-05:00

water the plant before we nap again

Ø

2010-01-07T15:18:00.000-05:00

franklin & calyer come visit we're broke

notes from the duplex

2010-01-05T13:30:00.001-05:00

our globe glows deepyellowchillwave.

what it means to be alive

2010-01-03T10:31:00.001-05:00

my beagle is 98 years old

lessons through shuffle (learning to let go)

2010-01-02T03:49:00.002-05:00

sweet trip > mtn goats > tallest man on earth > st vincent > s club 7 > beirut (it all makes sense)

decades

2009-12-31T01:59:00.000-05:00

the millennium is almost gone, i think

rose geranium & orange blossom

2009-12-28T00:21:00.001-05:00

soak

i really wonder if

2009-12-27T11:58:00.001-05:00

everybody has the same set of inside jokes, or if we are special in a bad way

it makes me sad that 'book' isn't pronounced more like 'duke'

2009-12-19T23:52:00.001-05:00

because then it would be my name for you

things collected

2009-12-19T03:00:00.003-05:00

lots of them today:

people in airports who have roll-y suitcases INFURIATE me because i trip on their bags when i try to pass them because i have horrible flight related anxiety causing me to sit at the gate for two hours in advance just in case the flight gets moved earlier and i miss it and end up stuck wearing my shoes all night

my family knows me really well and hid all the ski goggles because they preemptively knew i would steal them and wear them out, and i did. and i like it because even when they find the mason jar of white wine under my bed it's like YO I'M IN COLLEGE

project ideas: put pictures of puppies and/or my parents in every single 'guess who' slot, give as a gift

i think temporality is crushing me

and lastly, i spoke a few minutes ago with one of my girls from cottonwood, for the first time in a year maybe. i've been afraid to talk to the everyone because i'm worried they will perceive me as a failure, but we are all moving on in our own ways. and it's totally chill. check out.

leafing ohio

2009-12-18T11:14:00.002-05:00

i tried to larp and i found out i'm actually really bad it

reflections on being a "biddy"

2009-12-16T21:40:00.009-05:00

(pls listen to speechless while you read this post)

while there are many manifestations of the word "biddy", an oberlin biddy can generally be described by these three things:

1. has a consistent flow of money coming from parents
2. desire to make out with seniors (as many as possible)
3. is a freshman or first-semester sophomore

additionally, biddies often sport black tights, leather jackets, travel in packs, and feel obligated to chain smoke. (see above, left, and below, right)

i've been a biddy for a year and a half. my friends are biddies. we play biddy games. sometimes, people don't even say my name--they just shout "biddy" and expect me to respond (i usually do.) i've become really good at being a biddy, too; sitting outside of mudd, chain smoking, talking really loud about HOW MUCH FUN I HAD LAST NIGHT... actually, biddies are probably just the reincarnation of the jewish american princess. yeah, i like that. i'll stick with it.

but what happens now? sometime between this friday and february 8, i'm "not a biddy anymore." is this going to be like turning 18, when you wake up and you're like "cool i'm 18 now" but you still can't legally drink so really nothing is different? or is this going to be like turning 21, when you wake up and you're like "cool i'm 21 now" and you can legally drink but really you've been doing it for years so nothing is different? am i going to stop being obnoxious? are older boys going to stop "perving" on me because i'm not a biddy? will other girls hate me less? will i finally go gay?

really, i think this post is just me trying to draw some higher meaning from the past year and a half. a lot has changed since i started living in ohio. i have friends that are girls, i can drink coffee without milk, i learned a little bit of french. i cut my hair, cut my budget, and started wearing cashmere sweaters to sleep. i like who i've become, and i think that if i'm still considered a biddy, it's only because i am a nineteen year old female and i go to the feve a lot.

i tried to come up with a really poignant, over-arching statement to end this post with, but i really couldn't think of anything. i think that is probably the "most important thing i learned in college so far"--that a lot of stuff happens but you really shouldn't think about it too much because you have two more finals to write before you can go home on friday.

3a. try never get drunk in space

2009-12-15T12:42:00.002-05:00

(gil inoue)

finals

2009-12-14T20:44:00.003-05:00

there is a quiet beauty to the word. i will do this, and i will do it while listening to video game soundtracks.

i will compose myself

2009-12-13T21:19:00.002-05:00

self portrait

2009-12-11T12:10:00.000-05:00

whatevAr

2009-12-09T17:58:00.000-05:00

clean my room!! it's almost finals!!

this is me pooping on you because i am ANGRY

2009-12-08T18:41:00.002-05:00

i'm glad i didn't make any plans based on this like an apartment or something

we don't share a birthday, we do share a sign

2009-12-07T13:18:00.003-05:00

and we shared something or it was all in my mind

the sleepover party

2009-12-06T16:37:00.002-05:00

you can tell i'm an autumn and she's a summer and although i could not move i was very very happy

l'imparfait

2009-12-04T10:16:00.001-05:00

but did you know it does not mean "a parfait"?

my biological clock says

2009-12-02T12:04:00.002-05:00

i need to have an asian child within the next four months

i think i am in love

2009-12-01T15:04:00.001-05:00

oh boy oh poop

oops!!

2009-12-01T14:55:00.001-05:00

accidental fun day

bad boys, jealous girls-- been there, done that, i just want to fantasize.

2009-12-01T02:47:00.001-05:00

~*dream*~

edward larp and the pragmatic heros

2009-11-29T20:57:00.001-05:00

you make me feel weird like throwing up dirt

nothing is clarified and i dig myself into a deeper hole

2009-11-28T14:09:00.001-05:00

i looked into the water it distracted me

a pre-emptive thanks for:

2009-11-25T23:08:00.002-05:00

the mint 1989 canon slr rebel on my bed
apple crisp
offie's deteriorating (but steady) health
my mommy
my daddy

one of these crackers is not like the others (one of these crackers gives me anxiety)

2009-11-24T16:49:00.002-05:00

open letter to ebay

2009-11-23T22:23:00.003-05:00

no boys/internets allowed!!!

2009-11-17T18:14:00.001-05:00

health (i will be sleeping today)

2009-11-15T13:39:00.002-05:00

birthday text

2009-11-13T12:55:00.000-05:00

i am dizzy i don't think i can go to class so thirsTYYYYYYyy

ten months later, scarf is done. scarf has effectively witnessed 3/4 of my college experience. scarf has outlived my second hamster, digger.

2009-11-08T23:46:00.002-05:00

the myth of privacy

2009-11-08T15:08:00.000-05:00

cedar & lemon

2009-11-07T16:04:00.000-05:00

je pense que

**

2009-11-05T22:21:00.000-05:00

call your office on the phone,

2009-11-04T11:52:00.002-05:00

say you won't be coming home.

relevance

2009-11-03T22:54:00.001-05:00

lamp

2009-11-02T18:41:00.000-05:00

and a new radio show so i don't have to sleep at all now!!

@@

2009-11-01T19:30:00.000-05:00

what would carl sagan do

2009-11-01T16:56:00.001-05:00

coffee coffee coffee coffee and still no lamp

the lamp broke

2009-10-31T02:24:00.001-04:00

i don't like this color light

i just feel strange,

2009-10-26T22:56:00.003-04:00

like cereal or wet toast.

loosing my mind

2009-10-26T01:47:00.000-04:00

knit twenty rows, undid fifteen, knit six.

kitty puke

2009-10-24T16:47:00.000-04:00

oops i ate the nan and also a toblerone

there is a package of tandoori nan next to me that i cannot eat but want to

2009-10-24T15:22:00.000-04:00

this is the real world.

williamsburg virginia

2009-10-23T14:28:00.002-04:00

pizza party!!

blood bunnie

2009-10-22T14:58:00.001-04:00

she made me get my hare cut

switching lenses: new jersey as foreign oil dietary supplements

2009-10-21T15:20:00.004-04:00

animal planet is playing on the flat screen in our kitchen. kolie, whose senior citizenship has become increasingly apparent in the months i have been gone, has just made me egg salad. the eggs are underboiled, and a bit runny in the center. she squeals and points out the cheetas and large beasts, narrarating the already-narrated. "Wow! Wow! Your life is in danger! Wow! Come on, let me see if you can manage her. Wow! Wow! Mmm! Wow! These are FIERCE! Mmm!" earlier at the gynecologist, the doctor scowled when she saw my breasts. somebody called me, and my antiquated chromeo ringtone became the soundtrack to my pap smear. dope.

death by gaudio

2009-10-20T12:16:00.001-04:00

currently sitting in my car, waiting to park on the other side of the street.

i am hiding here!!!

2009-10-19T18:58:00.001-04:00

shh don't tell

like a water rat or jungle melon

2009-10-17T21:31:00.002-04:00

new jersey i whatever you and you're bringing me down.

HEY WOULDN'T IT BE COOL IF THERE WAS LIKE A WAY TO TAKE NORMAL PICTURES AND MAKE THEM LOOK LIKE POLAROIDS?

2009-10-16T14:40:00.001-04:00

YEAH THAT WOULD BE REALLY COOL IF THERE WAS A WAY TO DO THAT

do you know why i know you have a bluetooth headset?

2009-10-14T00:36:00.003-04:00

because i can hear you doing other things with your hands while you pace around in your boxer-briefs and business socks, and it makes me want to die.

i can hear everything through the walls

2009-10-13T13:03:00.001-04:00

do you not have a computer, or stamps, or carrier pigeons because i am very tired of waking up to your various business calls every morning. do you have a bluetooth headset? i bet you do. i bet it has stickers on it.

it is ideal

2009-10-10T11:38:00.001-04:00

and it is still real.

i don't remember any of it.

2009-10-09T00:01:00.000-04:00